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2013-03-13-05:19It's been almost a year since I have written in here. I really did NOT want to rhyme just then. I started writing my thoughts down by hand in a book that a good friend gave me. He said it's a powerful book and WOAH NELLY it is. (Where does "WOAH NELLY" originate from?) From writing by hand, it's like I can communicate on a more honest and raw level with myself. I can hear my alter. I can hear all the things I need to hear and see all I need to see. When I type, things come out a little too artistically as if I'm writing a novel or trying to make things sound witty and interesting. I feel like I've made myself a character in my own story, but I'm not truly writing out everything that needs to get out. I do type faster than I write (I think...), but writing by hand is so much more powerful for me. I haven't even looked back on all the pain I used to pour out in this place. I will eventually, but... I lost my train of thought. My mother looked at me from the hallway. ._. Random? Yes. Weird? Yes. Deal with it. I won't read through everything now. If possible, I want to download it all and save it. I want to be able to look back at where I've come from and show someone that I had the same painful thoughts as them. Indescribable. Painful. Wrenching thoughts. I won't write everything about how much better I'm doing, how confident I am, how much I'm learning about myself, how much more I can handle my stress, how much MORE I just am, but I do want to leave a sentence that brings it all together. The two are now one. |
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My real name is of no matter. For now, we'll stick with Kakurayami Reika. Ah, may age? I'll allow you to guess. :] I live in NYC, but my mind lies elsewhere. I'm a musician and I play electric & upright bass, piano, alto saxophone, guitar, drums, and harmonica all in that order. Order of ability to play of course. I love bass the most. ♥ Normal | Bold | chit chat.
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