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Day 02: My Personality
04-04
I'm back; I didn't lie.
I'm just writing this post from my iPod until I'm on the Amtrak tomorrow and I have wifi. So for now, this will do.
I've noticed I don't say much in he presence of people. My mind literally doesn't know what to do. I end up just sitting there, adding a few words here and there and laughing here and there. It never really hit me how awkward I am. I've always hated that word, but I see why people use it. It just angers me when they use it because they don't know the person underneath it.
I came to the conclusion last night after some thinking that I do know who I am and what I like, but I just have trouble expressing it because I'm afraid of how others will take or judge it. It really shouldn't be their business to take and judge, but their actions are their own. It never really hit me until now (that I really know who I am) but it's not like I'm late or anything. I'm only 19 and I have a hell of a lot ahead of me.
Managing myself has been going well. I've been able to focus and work for the most part. All I want to aim for later today is to act without the fear. That's my only goal for the day. Well... That and get to Boston safely, but that's irrelevant to this.
I'm glad to know my personality is there and doesn't need to be re-created. It's a relief and for a while I was scared I would have to make a whole other me, but that's not the case. I hope this goes for anyone else who's going throught what I am. |
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Why hello there. Welcome. Come by and visit this blog whenever you'd like. Pick up a phrase or two or some ideas; whatever fancies you. I'm just the writer. Take something from my words, go, and do.
My real name is of no matter. For now, we'll stick with Kakurayami Reika. Ah, may age? I'll allow you to guess. :] I live in NYC, but my mind lies elsewhere. I'm a musician and I play electric & upright bass, piano, alto saxophone, guitar, drums, and harmonica all in that order. Order of ability to play of course. I love bass the most. ♥ Normal | Bold | chit chat.
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