Not really a new date now, but the title will have to do. "Decision" sounded icky to me.

I'll start from the beginning again on the Chinese New Year. That's the 23rd of this month. Hopefully I can go to Chinatown to watch the parade.

I have no special reason for choosing that date other than that it's the Chinese New Year. I just wanted to pick a date and that was the first one I thought of.

I decided to write this post also because my mom just bugged me. How can you literally ask me, "Why do you have so many problems? I'm the older one. All you have to do is this." I can't find words to define that. How can you as a mother say that to your child? I can't even say I "love" you because I can't recall you telling me that. When was the last time you hugged me? I've never felt affection. I'm still trying to find out what it is.

Thanks. You've really done a lot in that department.