I'm typing this 03:47 on 1-5-2012

Happy 2012 by the way. It's going to be the year of the dragon.

The last post made in this blog was made when I last had internet.

It's soooo difficult to pick up from that and/or write what happened each day because that's about three weeks of posts. I'm not even attempting that.

I've grown somewhat stronger, have been able to fight the voices, learn more about myself, get more confident, and some more stuff over these past weeks. It was a diffuclt time for me in which I had a breakdown again, but it was needed. The fall semester is over and I did bad, but so what? Others did bad as well and I'm not beating myself up over it. What matters is what I've learned from that time and what I'm going to do about my mistakes in the future.

I really do NOT want to have to start these days over especially since I think I was doing pretty well in the second round of trying. Then again, I only reached Day 024 so I won't be re-doing THAT much.

Maybe I'll come back tomorrow with a couple of ides on how to make the new posts. I'm going to keep the note part at the bottom or change it into a quote; either way it's not really changing much. I'm liking the idea of posting a lowlight, highlight, and lesson for each day. Let's see how it goes. Is this day 000 once again? I don't know... ._.

FUCK

Good News: Looking back on some posts, I noticed that I said I had pain in my chest. I'm glad to say the pain is gone and I'm much more relaxed. I have trouble sleeping sometimes, but that's because I have to sleep in my mom's bed. The springs dig into my sides since the bed is so old and rough. My mattress is still alive, but it needs the frame which my mother is in the process of paying.

FUCK NO. I'm insane; not stupid.

Note: Never trust Verizon. They're the reason I've had no connection for so long. DX