Today is when I made the huge push for completing the portfolio for English 120. I slept for two hours, forced myself up, was jittery, did the cover letter, wrote what I needed to print out, cried for a good 10 minutes, skipped the math final, did the English final, finished that fucking paper, and handed everything in.

There's still the CLA 110 final which is on Wednesday, but I can study every day for that. I'm not worried about it right now. Although I've finished most of the load of work, I still feel pain in my chest. I think these are the after effects of being depressed and stressed. It still hurts in there. Maybe it's because of the bras I've had for a while so the elastic shrunk. (I made sure I'm the same size. I'm not going up again. NO.) Maybe it's a combination of that and an extreme lack of rest. Maybe I just need a lot of time to relax, laugh, dance, play instruments, and hang out and have fun. I've been too stressed to not overdose on all of that.

I feel so many kinks in my neck right now. It hurts.

I think I just need a really good rest. I'll have a good one when the frame for my bed is in the new house. I sleep on my mom's bed for the time being and her mattress is too hard for me. My lumpy pillows don't help that either.

I really hope I can make a good recovery from here on out. I think it's really just after effects. I'm going to feel pain for some time and then it will all go away. I have six beautiful weeks to enjoy and a new semester to look forward to.

I really can't believe it's all over though. It should hit me later. That's what happened a couple of days before. It hit me that I was almost done and I felt truly happy and relieved for the first time in a long time.

Note: Rest, relax, and recreation. You deserve it.