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[06 March 2010]
06 March 201011:19 PM Ugh. Just fucking ugh. It sums up my life right now. Wow, blogging really helps me get my emotions out while still sounding smart and cultured. *le gasp* /sarcasm+random I'm going to try my hardest to do this. I'm never going to do this again until I know for sure that it's the right moment with the right person. I've worn my heart on my sleeve for too long and I'm tired of it. I am never going to like a male human being ever again. No I'm not "turning into a lesbian" or whatever the fuck you want to call it. I'm just sick of getting hurt. I get my hopes up too quickly and just get hurt in return. It's been going on for too many years and I don't want to deal with it anymore. I feel sorry for my first boyfriend, whoever he may be, because he's going to have to go through a lot to completely have my trust. Maybe I'll never truly be able to give my heart to him. It's pretty hard to give someone your heart when you don't really know what love is. It's even harder when your heart is bleeding from nearly seventeen years worth of stabs. Wanna be a smartass and calculate that? Give each day that I've been alive one stab. That's 6,191 stabs to date. Yes, I used a "Days Alive Calculator". Kotowaruze. I refuse to write about how I came to this decision. Why? It's because... Well, I don't have a reason why. Something just tells me not too. Nobody really needs to know. -Graceful (K™)haotic Rocker |
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My real name is of no matter. For now, we'll stick with Kakurayami Reika. Ah, may age? I'll allow you to guess. :] I live in NYC, but my mind lies elsewhere. I'm a musician and I play electric & upright bass, piano, alto saxophone, guitar, drums, and harmonica all in that order. Order of ability to play of course. I love bass the most. ♥ Normal | Bold | chit chat.
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